Saturday, January 26, 2008
@1/26/2008
everytime i post is always sad i think...today i had a urge to tell everyone i feel that i m gonna to change to another person i think...bcoz i feel rlly useless la...cca i sudeenly dun feel a sence of belonging?whts happening with myself...for the 3 years of commitment i have been always trying to help in everything n havent failed to miss any trainings...now i feel another way...love training is a lie...pontaning is gonna be my life..i dun see a nid of mi in the unit anymore....now i m going for the sake of going...not saying no interest but little...i really want to change the mindset...but how could i?now in CCU team i feel troubled in many things n no peace as to many things...i m rlly sick n tired of this...n my birthday is coming..n there is a training also...shld or shldnt i come is another point of view...i dunno..haiish...who wants to be scolded or takan on his/her birthday..no one but now i feel that i nid to go for the training...how izzit now?my life is rll at a mess now...haiish...god plz plz save mi...i nid yr guide...guide mi through all obstancles n bring mi back to the normal life i always wanted...i rlly hope i m always at sec1...always loving to engage in wht i do...respect everyone...being helped out in many things...but i could not now...life is totally different..i suddenly miss those seniors that help mi out...haiish!Labels: being kind isnt a good thing afterall
